I used to use a daily list to justify my days as a 'stay-at-home' mom. I would make a list of to-do's at the beginning of the day or, at the end of the day, I would make a list of everything I did do and cross it off; to justify my worth. Often, I felt guilty for not working out of the home and bringing home a pay cheque. Before the lists, I would be speechless when asked the popular question "what do you do all day?" The lists proved to me and to others that I was justified in the decision to be the 'stay at home' parent!
These days, I feel more confident as a person(thanks to the Lord for His truth, and my husbands DAILY encouraging support) and don't find the lists necessary.(although, I still write a list on occasion) The benefits of our choice for me to stay home have been made clear over and over. The list does not make me worthy...who I am makes me worthy. This healing has been a process of baby steps over many years and now I know without a doubt, I am loved and accepted unconditionally...even without a list of crossed off tasks!
MY WISH LIST FOR 2011...
I'd like my back to be 100% healed...no more PAIN!
I'd like to be healed from being so hard on myself!
I'd like to be healed from negative thinking and doubt!