Sunday, December 19, 2010

Day 19...Healing. What healed you this year? Was it suddenly, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?


I used to use a daily list to justify my days as a 'stay-at-home' mom.  I would make a list of to-do's at the beginning of the day or, at the end of the day, I would make a list of everything I did do and cross it off; to justify my worth.  Often, I felt guilty for not working out of the home and bringing home a pay cheque. Before the lists, I would be speechless when asked the popular question "what do you do all day?"  The lists proved to me and to others that I was justified in the decision to be the 'stay at home' parent!

These days, I feel more confident as a person(thanks to the Lord for His truth, and my husbands DAILY encouraging support) and don't find the lists necessary.(although, I still write a list on occasion)  The benefits of our choice for me to stay home have been made clear over and over.  The list does not make me worthy...who I am makes me worthy.  This healing has been a process of baby steps over many years and now I know without a doubt,  I am loved and accepted unconditionally...even without a list of crossed off tasks!


I'd like my back to be 100% more PAIN!
I'd like to be healed from being so hard on myself!
I'd like to be healed from negative thinking and doubt!

1 comment:

  1. YAY!! You have learned to FLY!!! (FInally Loving Yourself!) WTG!