I used to use a daily list to justify my days as a 'stay-at-home' mom. I would make a list of to-do's at the beginning of the day or, at the end of the day, I would make a list of everything I did do and cross it off; to justify my worth. Often, I felt guilty for not working out of the home and bringing home a pay cheque. Before the lists, I would be speechless when asked the popular question "what do you do all day?" The lists proved to me and to others that I was justified in the decision to be the 'stay at home' parent!
These days, I feel more confident as a person(thanks to the Lord for His truth, and my husbands DAILY encouraging support) and don't find the lists necessary.(although, I still write a list on occasion) The benefits of our choice for me to stay home have been made clear over and over. The list does not make me worthy...who I am makes me worthy. This healing has been a process of baby steps over many years and now I know without a doubt, I am loved and accepted unconditionally...even without a list of crossed off tasks!
MY WISH LIST FOR 2011...
I'd like my back to be 100% healed...no more PAIN!
I'd like to be healed from being so hard on myself!
I'd like to be healed from negative thinking and doubt!
YAY!! You have learned to FLY!!! (FInally Loving Yourself!) WTG!
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